screwed

Climbing trip 14-23 Dec: Had. Such. A. Good. Time.
Minus the many many many bites would've been even more awesome, but still. Happiness.
And once again as with most of my best experiences, I'll be keeping my 1st climbing trip a little secret. Sorry(: Go find your own best experiences and you'll know how it feels so darn good.

24 Dec: Visited Kenneth at CGH... Poor thing he. And full recovery expected only at the end of next sem which means well yeah. Then Kaly's birthday gathering at Liy's which was sweet but I was kind of distracted so sorry guys.

Warning: whiny entry ahead.

In Gone With the Wind, there's one part when Scarlett is super-frustrated and angry at everyone for going on and on about the war and is upset at how everyone can be so hung up on something as stupid as war when something more important was happening: her heart was breaking into a million pieces because Ashley Wilkes was going to get married to someone else.

Ironic yeah? Well I'm kind of feeling the same way now. Before leaving the house mama told me to wash the dishes from lunch immediately or else the plates will crust up and it'll be difficult to clean them. And I was sitting there miserably, thinking "how can she be so hung up about dirty dishes when my university performance may be in jeopardy?".

Dont get me wrong I'm not lamenting my lousy results. In fact, I dont even know my results and honestly, I dont really care about knowing them. That's not the point... The point is that if I can't access my results, I can't S/U my module and that's what's important cos I need to S/U Chinese, which I just confirmed is possible, if only I could access my results damnit. It's annoying that the window period is 23-26 Dec; how am I supposed to get anyone in NUS to respond to my problem if they're not gonna be working during this period? stupid.

Having already messed up my 1st sem by:
- entering USP late and so not know more than 2 souls there
- and failing to get on-campus housing which has been a drastic waste of time, energy and mood
- screwing up mods bidding so that i end up with 3 mods that mean anything and 1 that's completely useless except for helping drag my CAP down
- no laptop

I've begun messing 2nd sem up too by:
- failing to pre-allocate for the USP mod, meaning i'll prolly get the shitty module nobody wants and if it's maths-y or science-y i'll totally die
- failing to get on-campus housing which is eff depressing
- failing to access results so i can S/U chinese which means i start the sem with an unneccessarily disgusting CAP

All in all Sem 2 looks like: depressing CAP + time/energy/mood to study pulverised by travelling + stay at home which equals unconducive to study anyway + geosphere peak period + gc peak period + climbing competition season + 6 mods inc. 8am classes.

staying on-campus mighn't seem like a big deal, but it seriuosly settles lots of things inc. nitty-gritty things which i tend to get affected by..

I feel so screwed): and nothing's even started. Crying's no use, but what else can i do?

At least climbing's going great but i know i gotta up my bouldering... But yeah at least there's that. Sometimes i wish i was a bimbo. Oh well not meant to be.