Chronicles of Ely's Reading - Day 1

Chronicles of Ely's Reading

Got sent to tanjong pagar by mama this morning; think i peeved her a little by hinting about her not being able to send me directly to NUS because we left the house just on time for her to be in office at 9am. Haha lesson -> stressed and hurried mama = mama not to be joked around with. Anw reaching hall today marks the beginning of my Y1 S2 Reading Week, and since i tend to get distracted while im spsd to be doing work, this(nothingness) shall be the outlet.

Biscuit-prata for tea today! "biscuit" because we got very blown up and crispy prata. would take a pic (it does look funny; like buns) but i gobbled them up alr hahaha. Tea break evaluation of progress on paper which i must finish today (or die trying mwahaha); it's day numero 3 working on this paper, and all i have to say is that i cant do Philosophy. it's such a huge mess to my inadequate mind, inflating to huge proportions about laws of life and existence then quickly deflating into little nuanced arguments with pages-long explanations of the difference between "to" and "from" 0_o to make things worse, some of the texts im (struggling to) read don't even sound English! urgh.. im presently STILL stuck waddling through a resistant tangle of Immanuel Kant, David Hume, and the (seems like) millions of philosophers who have something or other to say about Immanuel Kant and David Hume! i am not equipped to handle such heavy duty brainwork; feel like exploding! So once im done with this horrendous paper (it will be horrendous because i've nothing worthwhile to say in it so it will basically amount to 2000 words worth of painful worthless reading), i shall learn from my experience and not stupidly voluntarily take another Philosophy mod again unless i feel like frying my brain / struggling to stay awake in class.

looked forward to 4pm goal for tea, but didnt work as a motivational force to be productive and efficient because tea'll be there even if i make zero progress -_- and the fact tt i was one of the 1st to show up for tea does not bode well for my focus on my work =P

then looked forward to 6pm climb! didn't really work as a motivational force to be productive and efficient either because the idea drifted along only at abt 5pm so 1 hour basically all i accomplished was to psych myself up to be motivated; by the time engine started, time to climb =S

SO lesson #1 (tea goal): set quantitative target to reflect productivity and don't take tea till target met >< (self-discipline!!)

lesson #2: already know now that gonna climb tmr so start engine good and strong early on.

as a prelude to my true studying-productively-w-goal-in-mind tmr, i shall set one now! i will FINISH writing my paper before i zonk out tonight.
motivational force = i will wake up tmr morning having 100% completed 3 of my mods this sem (happyyy). which = 50% of all my mods this sem over and out (the window).

yeah! (: