lousy week

End of a pretty bummer week.
Maybe i'm trying to do too many things at once.. Which has recently increased the elysa-human interaction rate which is usually kept to a minimally low level because the more things i try to do, the more i find myself relying on people be it on their understanding / help / time / cut-me-some-slack and basically involving and being involved with people. Which is not something that i particularly enjoy nor have shown over 19 years to be any good at nor has made the last week anything more than bearable. And being a freak at this sort of thing, i naturally screwed up. So screw it. i tried, i failed. Guess i'll go back to the start. (Feel like an alien exhausted from trying to survive on people-land for a week. thank god for my family... aliens all too)