im so sad!! i didnt get to post a byebye2005 entry!! ): and now haha almost 10 days of 2006 has trudged on. oh wells. i cant imagine after being practically attached to the comp for 2mths, to suddenly forget all about being online. haha so funny. then suddenly everything's moving along, everyone's chatting and updating and stuffies and i am still here. lol this is amusing.
anyways, i have a bad headache today. due to probably a mixture of the (URGH!!) rain and putting on my specs for the 1st time in months! haha shows how much i love them. but.. no choice.. either i wear them, or i go blind during lectures haha :D
ok so its been 10 days, as said. how about a summary; 1st few days were spent being nervous about going to rj (yes, yes, funneh.) then on the 3rd, jengjengjeng!! i was late for the 1st day of school! so stupid la can! haha but anyhow, last week was orientation week. og: z'agioz, ogls: sarah & nash, and funkeh ogmates!! (: at 1st..ahaha no need to say la ah i think half the world knows how i felt (:P) but later on, and so far.. you know rj has not been too bad...
ok one more thing i must must must say: (you can go off to read another blog now; what follows might be an incoherent rant of nothings) i was really really really very very super duper uber extra sad and upset last night.i seriously cannot remember the last time i cried so hard, or for so long. my eyes were puffy like pillows when i awoke this morning (imagine! 1st day of lessons!) and i just wanna say that you suck you suck you suck you suck!!! you lying two-faced sneaky disgusting bloody unthinkable asshole damn you i hope that you'll be taught a damn good lesson and i hope you suffer and rot and tear yourself up (ok this is starting to get abit gross) cos you suck!!!!!! and i hate you! and i have never ever ever in my life met anyone so dishonest, so sneaky, so horrid, so immoral so terrible terrible terrible as you! damnit! how in the fucking world can you so calmly watch someone dissolve into the kind of shit i did, be completely aware that you bloody well caused it and give me that innocent front, pretending to HELP! oh my gawd i cant believe i ever trusted you, i ever believed you, and i promise you thet this will really truly be the end of us. forget everything i said, cos i have. and i hope i never ave to look into ur fucking face ever i n my life! if you had any dignity, and shame in you you will leave me ALONE, and just please, just bug off i never wish to see you again. damn you go away dont come back. fuck how could you pretend that you're like some angel sent from heaven ohmygod all the fucking pretence and the lies lies lies!i cant believe i fell for all of ur shit damnit. im so bloody stupid. DAMN YOU!
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