happening week

my past week and a half has been relatively happening, but not exactly exciting since 'exciting' makes it sound like i had a hella fun when in actual fact some parts were downright shitty like nobody's business..

term 3 is when the real feel of jc life sets in, when the teachers start getting so serious and they dont fool around anymore. term 1 and 2 was induction, introduction, framework, scaffolding, building of structures. and in term 3 they start getting put to the test, when jc (a level prep) really really begins. quite scary, the undercurrent of pressure, but i guess.. rj knows what it's doing, going by their record. nothing's going on here that we din sign up for. i suppose we just got to rise to the occasion when we gotta unless we wanna get trampled upon and left behind..

i got my not-so-random pang of 'i really hate myself, and the world can go die for all i give a shit' in the middle of the week; wednesday must've been the lousiest day of the term! ): bLAH; sometimes i wish i knew what the consequence was. then heck the 'learning experence', i'd avoid being in that situation no matter what it takes! but obviously, in this imperfect world, unpredictability and the unknown reigns; regardless of how much we know, there's so much mmore that we don't, and probably will never. (not unlike the points that lie on the outside of the PPC; everlasting and unobtainable- sigh what a cheery thought.)

well wtv better to find out now than later, tight? later...when i've sunk in so deep into the shit that i might as well be digging my own grave. better to get caught about the ankles and flail about or fall like an idiot earlier on but eventually get up and learn from it. (: ...i dont think im making much sense. :S

but... i've gained that much more perspective into the relationship between people around me, the very type of people they are -and i learn that i can be a pretty lousy judge of character :P, but i continue to do it anw (judge, i mean) so i should try to quit doing that huh.-how some people's intention is not reflected in their actions (from the pov of the receiver) thus leading to such unwillingness to cooperate (man-made incompatibilty) and friction between the 2 parties (what should i do if i can actually observe this occurence- like, im the in between, the neither here nor there, and i think i get pretty much what's going on; what should i do?), and of course one of the most sore points of the week was when i discovered that if you dont really know a person, dont act like you do. im replacing the 'you' in that statement with 'i', and im gonna take my own advice from here on. im not gonna let such a screwup happen again if i can help it, cos the feeling: damn it bloody sucks!

national interschool climbing competition (NISCC) tmr! so fun. but the instruction doesnt even state the venue; so funny... oh wellz looking forward to watching pro climbers, rather than climbing myself cos i dun expect much from myself seeing as i havent climbed since level 2 :( well wtv not sucha biggie niwaes, for the experence i guess... only thing im afraid of, making a laughing stock or a total fool of myself in front of people who matter. oh darnz... im having the 'cold feet b4 comp' that i always get hahaha. *remembers floorball on monday. :P

ok la night night. maybe will watch ghost whisperer later (: