where shud i go what shud i be

If blogs could decay from neglect, mine would probably be mossed. Not regular moss, either; Kate mossed. "-_-

I have so many things to say that I think I will leave some things out. Or run out of steam halfway. Plus I don't even know if I want the world to know. Not that the world reads this blog (for those who do, thanks for the interest), but still... there's the probability once the transfer is made from mind to type.
I think I miss crying. I had so many things to cry about in RG; gosh I was quite the wreck. Now, I mostly cry at movies.. and books. Don't think that will ever change; I can't help it. Really! And NO I did not cry at Ratatouille. Which was quite cute btw.. Even though I did initially want to watch Chuck and Larry until i realised it's M18 ouch. What's the gay status in Singapore anw? Does anyone know heard some hype about it I am too lazy to google, and I don't read the news much but I'd like to know.

I need some help. For uni apps. But. Although I've approached and discussed with several persons, I have this nagging feeling that I haven't found the one I'm supposed to be talking to. Who would lend THE light. And give me that help I need. Doesn't help that I'm scared of Mr.Booth. And I also have this nagging feeling that most people don't understand, and when we talk about it, they mostly end up just passing judgment or making assumptions. It's not their fault of course; this is my problem. But still, it'll just be nice...

Should i stay here or should i go there? Should i be a lawyer or should i be a something else? Would i make a good lawyer? Would i even like doing law? Really, would i be any good at it? If i choose to do law, i would stay in singapore i guess. the greatness of nus law school is too strong a draw. good publicity, guys. haha come to think of it, would i even make it into law? there's a joke that's not even funny. Forget this; i'll just go round and round again. It's like a plasmid. or prokaryotic dna. but will the RE or polymerase hurry and take me out of this circular headache already!

I wonder what i will have chosen when all this is over. I wonder if i'll laugh or i'll cry or i'll laugh and cry. In this moment it seems so big like such an issue, but oh how fast and how much such these things can change. Please God give me the guts and the guide to do what's right.

Tired nites.