pencil don't go

I am just now rekindling my relationship with the pencil, and I must say I think I'm falling in love.

[Digression: Also, I think?, a reason I do not as a rule fall in love with people - the level of vulnerability when you subject yourself to something as unpredictable as a person? That's crazy. I just don't think I could. So that makes me emotionally retarded, maybe - but at least you won't (often) find me wasting my tears on less gratifying matters than the current drama on Grey's, Private Practice or a movie about a dog that dies. The dramas remind me that I feel; experiencing it in real life have just more or less sucked and I don't see myself saying things like "but I learnt a lot from that" or "even if I could go back and change things, I wouldn't". Because I'd just want for none of it to have happened. Guess I just haven't been convinced that all that lurvvve stuff is worth the trouble that invariably accompanies. Like a shadow. Yes. Not for me; other people, sure, but maybe some just aren't built for it?]

But back to pencils.

I never noticed just how pretty and unique the words that come off a lead pencil tip are. The texture for one, is coarse and uneven - none of those cookie cutter thin sharp eyebrows I mean strokes that come off the mechanical pencil tips. And typing? I mean productivity increase, yes, but thanks to these lovely computers our generation onwards will have such deteriorated eyesight that spectacles are going to evolve into a human organ. Spectacles will soon become paired to our eyes how lips are to our mouths. Just don't kiss my specs; it fogs them up then I can't see.

Anyway, pencils.

The traditional art form of handwriting! Whether legible or otherwise, big or small, roundish or longish, cursive or what's-the-opposite-of-cursive, the handwritten word is essentially an extension of the person writing. Noone else, not even past/future you, could replicate just exactly a single letter that you've already written. How marvelous! Time to buy a sharpener (do they still make those things?) :D