At the stage on the long-ish stretch between papers, and when one day isn't any different from the one before or the one after in terms of main activity which is a)pore over lotsa words and b)empty pen ink on foolscaps. Extremely glad for all the endlessly amusing activities and company to make up for studying up to our eyeballs (:
something from 1 of LC's recent posts struck a chord. she wrote:
~i wonder if people who reflect more tend to be the ones who are more.. morose (?) because they end up being the ones who find so many things wrong with their lives when from the outside, their lives are the same or perhaps seem even better compared to those around them.
added together with something else that recently caught my attention again:
~take all of your big plans, and break 'em (jmayer)
and combined with my response to mama's latest "So what are you going to do?", which was "I don't know" (aloud) and "If I say it I'll just jinx it anyway" (not aloud). Think my response disappointed her..
Because not too far back i was the girl with the big dreams and who was forever talking about those big dreams and how wonderful it would all be, when those dreams kick in. I guess mama might have gotten some kick from hearing me go on so, and a sense of pride i suppose, that her kid was feasibly going after all those wonderful things. Hmm wonderful no more? =(
Anw, during those times i used to reflect(to get back to what LC said) more compared to now after i crossed the "what's the point of thinking if not thinking gets people by anyway". Simultaneously i used to judge alot more back then than i do now, and now i try to find positive traits when im presented what might at first glance induce a knee-jerk response of "what a disgusting specimen of the human race this is" in my mind... which i dont think i did alot last time... until i came across "be kind for everyone you meet's fighting a hard battle" which was frankly speaking a pretty direction-changing, paradigm-shifting earth-shattering moment for me somehow.
Haha this has so far been quite incoherent. Probably cos i haven't blogged in the longest time and there's so many things i've learnt in the past few weeks that's floating around in my head but that i can't seem to grasp and put down into blog-words.. Well i shall return to economy and space now and postpone my character consolidation efforts for another emo time.
Song vid dedicated to Jud (rmb Ipoh!! ><) for motivation to study till KL!! (:
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