Thursday, May 28, 2009

patience

everyone, if you give them time, will impress you
-> something on seeing the good in people instead of the bad
-> or on making judgments and 1st impressions ("1st" being however long until they "impress" you)
-> or simply a take on the value of patience generally

would like to comment on the real world manifestation of this: my cooking has improved! after a hiatus of staying in hall eating comm hall food / subway / cup noodles / nuh (basically pepared/instant food), i came home to find out i'm in charge of preparing meals while taking care of linda. spent the 1st week grumbling my way through and getting re-acquainted with, and frequently pissed at, the stove... until i realised that what i need is more of the (= and less of the >=( and =( and everything would get much better because a consistent and significant factor in most prolonged miserable situations is a bad attitude. WRT my cooking, i sourced out interesting easy-to-cook stuff and learnt how to control the oil. but this is about more than cooking, thankfully. now i look forward to the (= things i'll be doing soon like climbing and climbing and yeah climbing to keep the (= up so that until then, i'm not intolerable to the people at home. although mama does go too far with her words sometimes; just because she has the authority to doesnt mean she can't make the choice not to say mean, insensitive, false, accusatory, hurtful, hypocritical, ironic, stinging things on the spur of the moment triggered by some mundane discrepancy in the perfect household of her imagination, like a dish in the sink or an empty drinking glass left on the coffee table. anger management please.

the key to patience lies in finding something else to do
stumbled upon this recently!
since then my hp games have been increasingly accessed (and my already messed up hp has consequently been dying real fast but no matter i'm based at home where the charger is anyway)
-> one thing i'd really love to work on, for an impatient elysa is an elysa who spews out things she knows she'll regret saying and who hurts others. one drawback of being able to find easy expression in words: they come out so fast!

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