unemployment is psychological damage

if i am defined by what i do, then i am presently nothing. just drifting in a state of uncertainty. makes it easy for the doubts, regrets, 'what if's and 'damn it's to set in. doesn't help that i've always been the glass-half-empty sort. trying not to think about it but still managed to literally worry myself sick. commencement is coming up, supposedly a grand affair for joy and celebration. but the purposeless feeling and painful irony are easily trumping any cheer i manage to muster. what to do - made my bed, now to lie in it.